Big God, Big Vision - Pt 1

This has been laying on my heart deeply lately, so I figured I would try to put into words how Big our God is and how Big our vision should be.  This will be done in parts, so this is section 1 of 8.  Read, comment, whatever!  But know that I love and appreciate feedback!  
1.      Dream Big
2.      Have Hope that God is FOR YOU!
3.      Stand in the Face of Opposition
4.      Reality of Trusting God
5.      Needing God beyond Heaven and Hell
6.      Denying Your Self and Your Will
7.      Exchanging Your Desires for His Desires
8.      Getting Excited to Live

SECTION ONE: DREAM BIG

“Look at the nations, and watch –

And be utterly amazed.

For I am going to do something in your days

that you would not believe, even if you were told.”

Habakkuk 1:5 (NIV)

            Be EXCITED!  You cannot even imagine what God is doing or His Master Plan!  You can’t even piece together what heaven is going to look like or even what is going to happen in the future of your marriage, kids, career, church, or the world around you.  So much of Scripture talks about an omnipresent God.  It talks about a God who is all-knowing, all-loving, and all-powerful.  Yet, we limit ourselves.

            When we pray we ask for little things like, “Lord, give comfort to Billy Joe.  It’s just a really hard time for him.  Be with him, Lord.”  DUH!  God is already going to be with poor Billy Joe and God could do SOOOO much more if we widened our view of God.  Now, I am not saying this is a “Name It, Claim It” philosophy which is often looked upon in a negative light.  But I am saying we limit God by believing he can do so little for us.  Think about it, when did you actually ask and believe that God was going to do something huge and impossible?  In reality, we treat God as if He is small and honestly – BORING!  If we truly want to learn how to create a vision for ourselves and our church, then we need to attempt to visualize how big our God is!  We cannot get into a rut of little prayers accomplishing little things with little belief that our God can do more. 

            Job got a nice long speech about how big our God is.  He hit a rough patch in life.  It was tragic really.  He lost everything.  He lost his crops and livestock, his belongings, his career, and his family to the very last relative.  All of it was dead because God allowed Satan to test him to see if God was right about Job being righteous before God.  Not only did he lose his family and belongings, he also lost his health.  He got these sores that oozed out puss and yet he didn’t curse God as tempted, but rather Job sat in ashes, scrapping his wounds with a piece of broken pottery. 

            I admire Job at this point in the story.  When I got sick, I was not so quick to just sit around and wait for God’s work to finish.  Instead, I got angry.  I got so angry that I stopped going to church and believing that God really cared about us humans.  I was a perfectly healthy 19-year old college student who was headed for greatness, or so I thought!  I was going to get my bachelor’s degree in less than four years and head to graduate school for my dream career!  Well, I was going to do all of that until I was in a fender bender that traumatized my body into full-time, constant, chronic pain.  Day and night, 24 hours a day, 7 days a wee, my body writhed in pain.  Doctors thought I had gone mentally crazy.  Doctor after doctor, medical bill after medical bill, I strived for an answer.  But I longed for an answer far more than a diagnosis could bring.  I wanted to know why.  Why me?  Why was I cursed to live with this pain as long as my body had life?  With the pain came far more than an achy body.  Friends left quickly.  Many didn't believe me as it was not a disease of the outside, but rather an inner aching pain that begins attacking a body where no infection lies.  Lupus SLE was the diagnosis, but it didn't answer why I was being forced to live in constant pain.  The people who stuck around me gave all sorts of advice as to why it might be happening to me. 

            Job faced the same thing.  As he sat in ashes, friends came and sat by him.  I imagine he liked when they sat merely in silence, mourning his loss with him, until finally, they spoke.  They told him the age-old stories of why he had to go through all of this pain.  But, as you can imagine, not many words can calm someone when you are dealing with that kind of pain.  Eventually, after many days, Job is pushed to the breaking point.  In Job 29, he merely reflects on the way things were before disaster came, but by chapter 30, Job is brewing up a storm.  He complains and considers himself a righteous man, undeserving of what has come to him.  In Job 38, after another long speech from a friend, God answers Job.  I assure you, I would not have wanted this rebuke from God which went on four chapters thereafter. 

            What you need to know, and I encourage you to read it for yourself, is that God is truly all-powerful!  He takes care of the rising and setting of the sun and the tides and where the moon sits in the sky.  He controls the weather and the animals.  He is the ONLY righteous being!  He is BIG!  He is “large and in charge!” Yet, we deny that He could do more for us than bring a little peace and comfort.  We give in to the idea that it bothers God or that it is wrong to ask for more than what could be considered “politically correct” to have.  In fact, I think it bothers God when we ask for so little.  How can we truly trust and follow a God whom we allow to do so little in our lives? 

Jesus tells this parable in Luke 7:41-43, 47 (NIV).

“Two men owed money to a certain moneylender.  One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty.  Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he canceled the debts of both.  Now which of them will love him more?”

                        Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt canceled.”

                        “You have judged correctly,” Jesus said…

“Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven – for she loved much.  But he who has been forgiven little loves little.”

            I love this parable. It falls just in the middle of Jesus being anointed by a sinful woman.  Imagine Jesus eating dinner with the Pharisees and a woman who was known by the entire town as a sinful woman entered the house with an alabaster jar of perfume.  Imagine the woman coming and sitting at Jesus’ feet allowing her tears to cover Jesus’ feet so much that she was able to wipe them clean.  This woman’s hair was long and probably tied back, but she sat at Jesus’ feet, undoing her hair, and wiping his feet with her hair.  She bent down kissing them and pouring perfume on them.  Now, imagine you are the Pharisee who allowed Jesus into your home believing He was a great prophet.  The thoughts that roamed in the Pharisee’s mind were probably along the lines of disgust.  He felt disgusted that Jesus, a great prophet, would allow such a sinful woman to touch him.  Jesus subtly addresses these thoughts in this conversation with Simon Peter. 

            “He who has been forgiven loves little,” verse 47.  We forget that we ourselves are sinners and are in need of that forgiveness.  But more than that, I believe we forget that those who have been pulled out of a life of such turmoil love Jesus much more than we can imagine.  Why?  Because they came expecting that healing, that forgiveness, that anointing, knowing that nothing else on this earth can give it to them.  They knew that no one would be so forgiving and so powerful that they could allow such mercy EXCEPT for Jesus.  They knew His power.  They were able to dream that there was life beyond “that” sin or “that” mistake. 

            I am sure you can remember back when you were a kid when it was “that” thing that was so bad that you were gonna get a good whoopin’ for that one.  Or you can remember that time when you did something so bad that no one could ever forgive you.  Or early on in school when you did something so wrong that now your best friend was never ever going to trust you ever again!  I think we've forgotten that we still do this today.

            When I got my driver’s license at age 16, I thought I was pretty cool.  I was a year behind all of my classmates because I was almost a year younger than everyone, but I was awesome.  Two weeks after I got it, the first week of my junior year of high school, I totaled my mom’s van.  After I got back behind the wheel, in January, less than 5 months after getting my license, I slid on a patch of black ice, rolled down a hill, and by the grace of God a tree line stopped us.  Both accidents no one was hurt, but I totaled another van.  That January morning, the cell phone tower was out.  My brother, who is 18 months younger than I am, ran to a nearby house and called my parents.  I was TERRIFIED!  I didn’t think my parents were ever going to forgive me because I screwed up not only once but twice.  I had my siblings with me both times as well as a friend.  Of course, my parents forgave me but let’s just say, it took a long time for me to get behind the wheel again!  This story may seem silly to you, but it completely adjusted my way of thinking about the parable on forgiveness. 

            The great thing about God is that if we confess and truly seek to change our ways, He will forgive us.  Over and over again, He will forgive.  When I think about my parents’ forgiveness toward me and how I thought I was never going to be forgiven, I am amazed at how God works in our lives.  It took a long time for God to help me release that burden that I carried.  I wasn’t sure God was going to forgive me even if my earthly parents already had.  But God’s love is far more than what we can even imagine. 

            If God’s love is that large, imagine what He wants to be able to do for us as long as we are willing to ask and believe that He can achieve such impossibility!  Ephesians 3:20 (NIV) says, “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us...” That’s right!  He can do more than all we could ask or imagine, so why do we limit Him by limiting our prayers?  Why do we plan out our entire life knowing that God could do so much more if we allowed Him?  If we truly place our lives in His hands, we can have a vision of the future like no one else!  We can rely on His promises.  We can count on His faithfulness.  We can attempt to imagine how awesome our lives can be! 

            Those who have been forgiven much know His Power!  They know they can dream BIG because they have a big God!  A God of the impossible who can do more than we can imagine! 

            Dream BIG!  It’s worth it!  

Holy Smoke!

Isaiah 4. Click here for an online Bible!

Ever had any bad news come in?  Of course!  Everyone has.  Last night, Pastor Lenny talked about how often we get bad news and throw ourselves a pity-party!  He also talked about much of how we are quick to share our bad news, but when God blesses us with Good News, we often ignore it and do not share it.  While he talked about a lot of exactly what I'm experiencing, the Lord revealed to me one step further.  We could call it being proactive.

In Isaiah chapter 3, we saw all the doom and destruction but it seems now that chapter 4 begins to show some hope.  He talks about the Day of the Lord, which in NT terms, the day of the Messiah!  There is a lot to glean from this short chapter, so I'm going to focus in on one, maybe two, verses.  

"And the LORD will create upon every dwelling place of mount Zion, and upon her assemblies, a cloud and smoke by day, and the shining of a flaming fire by night: for upon all the glory shall be a defense.  And there shall be a tabernacle for a shadow in the daytime from the heat, and for a place of refuge, and for a covert from storm and from rain" (vs 5-6, KJV).  

I love how the word "create" is used.  Create means to make something out of nothing.  This is the same Hebrew word that is used in Genesis when God was forming the earth out of nothingness.  But here, the significance is awesome!  That means that it wasn't in existence.  It was something that we couldn't find here on earth without the Creator.  What is He creating?

A cloud and smoke by day.......This is like the cloud of smoke in Exodus when the Israelites were passing through the Red Sea and the Egyptians were close behind them!  God put a cloud of smoke behind the Israelites and caused the Egyptians to be unable to see and leading to their death.  This goes right along with God as our rear-guard!  He gives us Armor for the front of us (Eph 6) but HE is our protection for our back.    He created the shining of a flaming fire by night, so He is "for us" night and day!  God's glory in the OT is often shown as a cloud.  And His cloud, His glory, will be our defense, our protection.

THIS Holy Smoke is our place of refuge.  When the good and bad come rolling in, we can run to Him.  We don't have to wait for the storm to come to build a place of protection, HE has already created it.  We don't have to wait until we're tired from the journey to know where we are safe to rest.  We don't have to worry about having enough supplies, because we already have a refuge of protection with the King, whose power is limitless!  You need peace, run to the cloud of His glory.  You need strength, run to His cloud.  You need a blessing, run to His cloud.  You need a healing, run to His cloud!

No matter what, we can run into His arms for there we are protected.  This doesn't mean that bad things won't come, in fact - often when we are doing God's will it is all the more reason for the Devil to attack us.  BUT, it means that God is fighting the battle for us.  All we have to do, like the Israelites, is press forward.  Don't look back, but let God fight the battle with HIS glory.  The enemy cannot win against GOD!  Amen!  But we have a place of refuge and protection.  A place to run to when bad things happen that is WAY more comforting than the attention other people will give us when they say "It's gonna be okay."  Listen to God and His instruction to get you through for the battle is not ours but His.  Are you willing to do something more than sit on our duffs in the midst of pouring rain?

Are we willing to allow that Holy Smoke fight the battle?

Do we truly know what to do when bad things happen?

Love Me More

I'm talking about Isaiah 3 today, so grab a Bible and read it or click here for an online version.

Just at first glance, this chapter looks to be a downer.  It's all about the sin, doom, and destruction of Judah.  It doesn't sound pleasant.  And most would say that it really doesn't apply to us...HOWEVER, I assure you, we are just as bad as Judah.  The good news will come later.

As most of my writing style happens to be, I like to key into certain verses that we can glean a great deal.  This time, it's verse 24...

"And it shall come to pass, that instead of sweet smell there shall be stink; and instead of a girdle a rent; and instead of well set hair baldness; and instead of a stomacher a girding of sackcloth; and burning instead of beauty." (KJV)

Verse 24 seems quite harsh.  But here's what it boils down to:  When we put something in front of God, He isn't going to allow us to have it forever.  How often do we see celebrities with riches gone bankrupt?  This verse seems odd because we aren't in the times, but to have long hair is a woman's glory.  And when people were fat, it meant they were well fed and often times-rich.  To wear sackcloth is a sign of mourning and not well-dressed clothes.  A girdle is a sash and a rent is rope.  A sash was definitely better than rope to keep one's clothes on.

I'm not going to go into all the things that we have and what they can result in becoming.  But I want to ask you, if it all was taken away, would you have faith in God?  Would you be able to keep going if your car was taken away?  What about if you lost the roof over your head?  If your children were no longer with you?  If you no longer had your career?  If your spouse and family were taken away?  So often we think we have it under control until something happens, which puts us out of control.

I've had an issue with control for quite some time now.  Looking back, I can see how circumstances came that put me out of control and were to put my dependence on God.  I felt in control over my vehicle until at age 16 I was in two car accidents that totaled the vehicle but me and my siblings and friends walked away unharmed.  I learned the surpassing grace of God in allowing us to live unharmed midst my ever persisting stubbornness.  I felt control over how healthy and how sick I wanted to be until God allowed me to become truthfully sick.  I felt control over the pride I had in my education, until I no longer was able to continue to go to school.  I felt control over finances until the tie was abruptly cut between being an adult and being a child.  See, this is what happens when we take control over our lives.  When our lives no longer shout glory to God and live according to obedience, God will test us or allow circumstances to come our way to see if we really love Him, or if we love our stuff and our control more.

Do you love Him more?  More than yesterday?  More than life's circumstances?  More than that job you're headed to?  More than that job you don't have?  Do you love Him more than your family?  (He calls us to love Him more than our family in Scripture so much that it looks like we hate our family - Matthew 10:37.)  Do you love Him more than food, smoking, drugs, alcohol?  Do you love Him more?

If you don't have reason to love Him more than these things, perhaps you need to get into a deeper relationship with Him...Perhaps you've gotten stuck in the desert.  But, sacrifice over to Him the things in your life that come between you and Him.  He will bless you for it and your relationship with Him will never be the same!

He is calling, "Do you love Me more?"

Glorify the Right One

Go ahead and read Isaiah 2, if you don't have a Bible handy, click to go to this link.  

Isaiah 2 is all about the Mountain of the Lord and the Day of the Lord.  I'm gonna make this a quick post, not because it needs to be rushed, but this Word is very concise in its message.  In lame man's terms, we should glorify the right one.  

The first five verses talk about going to the Mountain of the Lord and walking in the light of the Lord and in His ways.  THEN, we get to verses 6 through 22 where it talks about who will be exalted in the Day of the Lord.  Which, most people would agree that it would be GOD!!!  Seems like of like a "duh" moment, but if we really think about it, do we really even exalt God now?  That's what this Word is trying to convey.

We may be doing everything right according to the Law (which is the Covenant of Love for the New Testament Christians as compared to the sacrifices, rules, and rituals of the Old Testament), but when we expect praise from men, we aren't going to be getting praise from God.  When we give of ourselves and expect some one else to see, we are really trying to exalt ourselves.  

"Their land is full of idols; they bow down to the work of their hands, to what their fingers have made" (NIV, v 8).  

If you really think about this verse, and what our idols are these days, this is quite a kick in the butt!  "Idol: a person or thing that is greatly admired, loved, or revered." (From Google definition search)  So, anything we put before God is an idol.  And in Scripture, it says that God is a jealous God! (See Ex 20:3-6.)  What are our idols?  Yes, some even have images like little statues, but others admire money, success, exaltation, pleasure, career, power, influence, control, position, and even SELF!!!  I'm not perfect at this either...

Back to Isaiah - SEVERAL times it says that the arrogance of man will be humbled and the pride of men brought low; the Lord alone will be exalted in that day...Verse 9, 11, 17.  But in verse 18 it continues saying "and the idols will totally disappear" (NIV).  So the money, career, influence, control, self, that we worshiped and took such delight in will vanish.  We will be brought low and God will be brought high.  

This Word will not come to fruition until we the people can begin to bring God's kingdom here on earth.  If we were trying to establish a kingdom, we would not all be kings and queens.  There would be one.  There would be obedience and respect brought to the King and we would be as servants.  This is what we must do here on earth.  We must put God as the center of attention and honor Him and obey Him.  We must deny any traitors (idols) that may rise up against Him.  

"Stop trusting in man, who has but a breath in his nostrils. Of what account is he?" (vs 22, NIV)

How often are you trusting in the things of man or mankind itself?  Are you trusting in those idols more than in God?  Are you worshiping (bowing down, spending time with, exalting) them more than God?  If so, repent and start anew.  Begin to look for ways to establish God's kingdom here on Earth and for ways to exalt Him rather than the idols of today's world.  If you're having trouble, ask God in prayer to show you, and be assured He will.  Let's glorify the Right One rather than the idols and ourselves.  

"For whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted" (Mt 23:12, NIV)

Seeking

Today, I'm finishing Isaiah 1.  So, grab you're Bible or head to this site, which will take you to it online where you can read it or click on the audio button to listen to it!  I'm only going to focus in on a few key verses today but you need all of it to get the idea of how rebellious the nation actually was from God's eyes.  

 

When we start to look at Israel in the Bible days, some think everything was honky dory.  Some think everything was great...They've got the temple sacrifices set up and going and Jesus is on the way!  Not quite the picture perfect scenario though.  By this point in time, a civil war had broken out between the Northern kingdom (Israel) and the Southern Kingdom (Judah) and the people in power were being evil to the poor.  Yes, evil.  There's not any other way to describe it.  Essentially, people were living out the religion on the outside, but inside they were empty.  Sound familiar?  

We talked about verses 1 through 6 already, so we'll continue on.  To understand verses 7 through 10, you've got to go back to the early days of Sodom and Gomorrah.  (See Gen 19.)  The outcry to the Lord against the people was so great that burning sulfur was rained down on them.  So, the people weren't living up to the standard.  So what?  

God goes on to discuss what the issue is - verse 11:

"The multitude of your sacrifices - what are they to me?" says the Lord.  'I have more than enough of burnt offerings, of rams and the fat of fattened animals; I have no pleasure in the blood of bulls and lambs and goats" (NIV).  

WOW!  For a people who entirely base their reconciliation for sin off of animal sacrifices, that seems like a shock!  God is saying that the death of these animals and the scent of blood isn't pleasing to Him because of verse 13: 

"Stop bringing meaningless offerings!  Your incense is detestable to me..." (NIV).

The people were sinning...they were rebelling and missing the mark.  BUT, it became meaningless when it wasn't a sacrifice to the actual human making the sacrifice.  Do not think we are free from this.  We may not have to do the animal sacrifices because of Jesus' ultimate sacrifice, but think about the last time you sinned.  (Probably not too long ago.)  Did you repent?  Did you truly turn from your ways and seek to live free from that sin?  Quit thinking about the big ones...think about the little ones.  The little lie you told.  The snip-it of gossip you just had to partake in. The nasty thought you just had.  The anger you just lashed out.  It doesn't have to be murder or adultery for it to be a sin.  Anytime we do not live up to the perfect standard God has, then it is a sin.  In the Old Testament, there would be a set of animal sacrifices to go with that sin.  But, if you're making the sacrifice to cover the sin and then you do it again, what good was it in the first place?!?!?! The apostle Paul in the New Testament talks about this in Romans 6:

"What shall we say, then?  Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase?  By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?" (NIV, vs 1-2).

We must turn from our evil ways.  God does not desire our repentance if it isn't full-hearted!  Now, I understand that sometimes we do it full-heartedly and still mess up.  I've done it too...and that's where grace does come in.  BUT, we have to strive to be perfect as our Heavenly Father is perfect (Matt 5:48).  

So, as verse 16 says (back in Isaiah 1), we have to turn from our sin and take it out of God's sight.  He doesn't want to see it.  Just like when you were a kid, your parents really didn't want to see you mess up.  And if you are a parent, you really don't want to see your kids mess up.  But it goes further than that because God is a perfect God and He cannot tolerate sin.  That's why we have Jesus, again, but we cannot use grace as a crutch.  (I know, buckle up them steel toed shoes.  I have to live this too ya know!)  

Here's where I really want to sit for a while though.  Let's look at verses 17 through 20:

"learn to do right!  Seek justice, encourage the oppressed.  Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow.  'Come now, let us reason together,' says the Lord.  'Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.  If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the best from the land; but if you resist and rebel, you will be devoured by the sword.' For the mouth of the Lord has spoken." (NIV)

Whew!!!  There is a lot in there.  I'm going to pick through it and break it down so we can digest it more thoroughly.  Let's do a little vocabulary lesson:

• "Learn" - To teach, exercise in, trained in
• "Right" - to be well, to be good, be pleasing, glad, joyful, do thoroughly, to make a thing good or right or beautiful.
• "Seek" - to resort to, seek with care, inquire, require, to consult, to frequent (like a place), investigate, to practice, study, follow
• "Willing" - consent, yield to, accept, to desire
• "Obedient" - to hear, listen to, obey, understand, give heed, to be regarded, agree

Let's walk through it with the definitions...Just verses 17a and 19...

Be trained in how to thoroughly do things well and pleasing.  Inquire and be frequent to find justice and rebuke the oppressor (often this is a footnote in Bibles)......If you consent and desire it to be so AND if you are in agreement to listen and obey, you will enjoy the prosperity of the earth....

I don't know about you, but when I hear "prosperity" in place of "good" that just makes my natural man happy.  BUT, this goes further than that.  It is very similar to Matthew 6:33 which says: 

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well" (NIV).

All these things refers to the above verses about basic needs like food, shelter, clothing, etc.  God already knows that we need them.  What He knows we need most is a relationship with Him.  A tight-knit bond that can't be broken.  Some people had a great relationship with their father, and I know others don't.  But let me tell you...there's no divorce in our relationship with our God.  There's no abuse or neglect.  There's nothing that can strain our relationship with Him except our ignorance of Him.  Even the sin issue is resolved by grace (though as we talked about, we shouldn't keep sinning just because grace exists).  We have to seek Him!  Just as we should seek to do good and seek His kingdom, we MUST seek Him.  

One last Scripture...no worries, I'm wrapping it up.  

"And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him" (Hebrews 11:6, NIV)

The Greek word used here for "seek" is (in English phonetics) ekzeteo.  This means: to search for God, to investigate God, to scrutinize (def: to examine or inspect closely and thoroughly), to BEG for God, to CRAVE God.

I don't know if you have a relationship with God.  I don't know if you even care about God right now.  I don't know if you're like those in Isaiah's day that kept bringing the sacrificial lamb, but forgot the repentance/life change.  But, what I do know is that God rewards those who SEEK Him.  I do know that sometimes, we're at a point in our life when we really have to take a step in towards God to see if He is all that He says He is.  We come to that point where we need to investigate God, because of past hurts or even current pain.  I know I did.  But maybe you're at that point where you are begging for God and you crave God more than anything else.  You want His presence to come down but you're not sure what it's going to take.  To be honest, it is going to take death on your part.  You're going to have to kill your flesh (in a spiritual sense) and make it obey.  You're going to have to sacrifice that sin that you've held onto for so long and TURN 180-degrees away from it.  I can tell you from experience that you won't regret it...you'll feel it, and you may lose yourself over it, but the less of you, the more there can be of God.  God is a perfect God.  He loves you.  But He can always see the potential you have far grander than what you can even dream!  

Search for Him.

Beg for Him.

Crave Him.

SEEK Him!  

 

Got a Problem?

Let's face it.  No one likes to talk about being broken.  And especially not when it comes to our heart, mind, will, etc.  BUT so often, that is the exact place God is calling us.

Two Tuesdays ago (let's see, February 5, 2013), God broke me.  Now, I assure you...He is a gentleman.  He will not take what we do not give Him.  However, a young woman who helped lead the youth in a small-town church in Missouri taught me the very basic notion of brokenness.  She constantly was asking the Lord to break her and mold her.  I asked her about it several times and I got a variety of answers from John 3:30 which essentially says, "More of Him, less of me," and when I'm broken, I'm drawn close to Him.  I've never seen so much reverence in my life except for what she exhibited to me at a young age.  But, I was told that we must ask for it.  It sounds silly to be asking God to break you, but it does more than just draw you close. It defeats pride, something I think everyone struggles with from time to time.  It causes you to recognize who is God and that you are not God.  It causes dependence on God.  It instills "fear" of God.  (I'll talk about that later...but think more of reverence instead of judgmental fear.)  It shows you what you're not, aka where you're lacking.  It tests and tries your faith.  And most of all...it allows you to be molded into what GOD desires you to be for Him.  A vessel filled with living water!

So, back to my breaking experience...As I went into prayer meeting, I was sure that it was going to be a night to remember.  This was the first night we were starting our intercessory prayer ministry and the team was meeting to pray for salvation and healing to come for specific persons and for the church and its move and even global movement of Christ's kingdom.  As soon as God's presence began to infiltrate the church, I had to leave.  It was an awful thing really since I love Jesus and His presence.  But I had come to the point where I had acknowledged sin in my life and I really didn't want to deal with it.  The truth of the Scriptures were coming to light and me, with my sin, could not stand in the presence of God.  (See Ps 101:7)  So, I went out to the atrium area.  About a week earlier, I prayed for God to break me.  I was at a point where I wanted to move closer to God but I didn't know how, so I asked Him to show me and break me.  Be careful what you pray for, because you may actually get it!

Anyway, in the atrium, I sat on the floor.  I wept.  I was so distressed that I could not be in the sanctuary.  Growing up in church, I was there constantly...So, to be sitting outside while a powerful prayer meeting was going on was not only new but heart-breaking that my sin was so great that I couldn't be in the Presence of God.  As I prayed, I began to repent and to confess my wrongdoing.  I began to confess not only to God but also to myself the severity of my sin and that I was nothing in comparison to my God!  At one point in time, I remember saying over and over "I am nothing" through the tears.  This was not an easy operation ladies and gents.  The stronger the nut, the more pressure it takes to break it.  I was strong-willed and stubborn.  And it took a great deal of pressure to break me.  My heart felt like it weighed 100lbs!  Once it came to climax, I felt the Lord telling me to crawl into His presence.  I wept even more at that point in time!  There's that breaking of pride.  What Lord, I can't walk to the altar?!  But, I began.  He said He would meet me when I was broken.  I didn't get very far.  It was like one heavy crawl after another heavy crawl.  One of our elders came back with a Word for me.  God spoke through her saying, "It doesn't feel like it right now, but I'm giving you the answer you've been praying for.  I'm tearing you down so I can build."  Ever so vividly, I saw a withered tree being uprooted completely.  The soil was tilled and made healthy and a seed was planted.  Once that seed was planted, the heaviness left and it was replaced with peace.  I've never felt so light in my life.  I did make it to the altar after God met me.  But all I could do was praise Him.  Praise Him.  Praise Him.

I'm not saying these last two weeks have been easy.  I'm saying I'm in a better place with God because of repentance and brokenness.  I can go deeper with Him because of overcoming a prevalent sin in my life.  I can go deeper with Him because I know He is God in such a real way.  I have a sense of what He sees because I don't have the sin blocking the eyes of my heart.

Brokenness isn't something we like to talk about.  It's almost as bad as talking about death.  Yet, Jesus calls us to die daily.

Got a problem?  Repent...Confess it to an all-loving God!  Because God can't come near to us when we're in sin.  And when you turn from your way, God will draw near...

God doesn't seem near?  Examine your life to see if there be some way in you that doesn't line up with God's Word.

Want to go all out?  Die to yourself.  Ask for brokenness to come.  And relish in the Presence of God.

Yada, Yada, Yada

Isaiah 1:2-3 (KJV)

"Hear, O heavens, and give ear, O earth: for the Lord hath spoken, I have nourished and brought up children, and they have rebelled against me.  The ox knoweth his owner, and the ass his master's crib: but Israel doth not know, my people doth not consider."  

Most of Isaiah talks about the depravity of the human nature.  Unfortunately, the moment we decided that we wanted to be like God (See Gen 3), we fell far from the standard God holds.  Before, in the garden of Eden, we walked and talked with God and had an intimate relationship with Him.  Now, most of us strive to give even 15 minutes of time to God and fail miserably.  

Yesterday, I talked about how God created us...Today, I'm talking about "yada" and rebellion.  I hope you have your steel-toed shoes on.  As verse 2 of this passage says, God has "nourished and brought up children."  

Nourished - to grow, become great or important, promote, do great things, to rear...bring up.  

God has caused us to grow...Think deeper than just when a child grows taller.  Think of ALL the things a child begins to learn...how to eat, walk, talk.  They learn manners and then the schooling starts.  They learn how to share and be kind...The learn letters and numbers, how to read...it just progresses until soon, they learn respect and calculus...

BUT, we have rebelled.

Rebelled - to transgress, revolt

WOAH, so now we've not only "sinned" but we've revolted against God.  The God who taught us everything we know and who has taken care of us day by day...and we have not only turned our backs and done a few bad things, or really bad things, but now we are taking away His authority and trying to keep it for ourselves.  We aren't becoming "like God" we're attempting to become God ourselves by revolting/rebelling.  Whew!  

But let's get to yada...Yada is the Hebrew word (well, yada is the phonetic spelling...) for "knoweth."  This is so deep...So here is what knoweth means....

Knoweth - to perceive, see, find out and discern, to discriminate, distinguish, to know BY EXPERIENCE, to be acquainted with, revealed, instructed.

Yada, yada, yada...We should be pursuing this like none other...We are to know our God.  John 10:27 says, "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me." (NIV)  This is the same kind of know.  But we must have the desire to want to know God.  We've got to stop revolting and the rebellious fight, and come back to the God who knows us.  He wants to know us...But do we want to know Him?  Do we know Him by experience?  Have we discriminated His voice from the voices of this world or the devil?  Have we had revelation of who He is?  Have we taken His instruction?    

In calculus, there are such things as "imaginary numbers."  I've never had a knack for these things.  Mostly because math should be, in my opinion, cut and dry.  There should never be more than one answer to a problem, and no guessing allowed.  But with imaginary numbers are taken by faith.  How often are we to take God and His faithful Word by faith, yet we rebel and start taking back control?  How often have we read the Word that tells us not to be anxious but to praise Him (Phil 4:6) and yet we get worried and start to do things our way?  

Yet, if we really KNOW (as in YADA) Him, we would be so acquainted with Him that we will know He has done it before and will continue to do it well.  He has our back...He has caused us to grow spiritually...not just in the natural.  He has taught us how to become great and how to know Him, even from the first days in the garden.  But we have to be willing to take the step because we're the ones who took the step away from Him.  

I don't know where you're at today in your spiritual life.  But as we go on, we'll learn that there's a lot more hope to this than anything else.  Jesus says, "It is not the healthy who need the doctor, but the sick." (Matt 9: 12)  Well, our doctor has come and He is healing...not just physical bodies, but spiritual souls.  I don't know if you know Him as in Yada...or if you're still revolting and trying to do things your way, but I'm telling ya...I've been there.  I've seen what revolting can do and it doesn't have peace or joy.  There's no true happiness in it.  So come back.  Start at the beginning and begin to really KNOW Him. Don't just know ABOUT Him.  But really KNOW Him.  Who He promises to be (Heb 13:8) and Who He is today.  Let Him be a part of your life, not apart from your life.  Let's get some "YADA, YADA, YADA" flowing!!!